Just Friends

Your warm and soft touches

Your addictive and gentle kisses

They all drive me insane

But drench me in so much pain

I’m not yours and you’re not mine

It’s killing me but I say it’s fine

I’m merely doing this to keep you

Though, not exactly how I want to

I want something more from this

I want more than an emotionless kiss

But I’m scared of letting it show and hearing me say

Because I just really don’t want to scare you away

2012-03-11

8:53 pm

Once More.

Long lonely nights

Sad pointless days

I see a dim, dim light

From the sun’s fading rays

Losing you now

I need to hold back

And not say out loud

And not going to ask

You to stay here then

You to look right at me

With those eyes again

And feel once more what you felt for me

We’re done

And it’s all over now

Saving what’s gone

Saving your futile vows

I need to start again

And look the other way

Feel nothing for you, then

Hold back the tears away

2012-03-11

8:39 pm

The Blue Baby

Step into my shoes so you would see

What it actually is like to be me

Wrapped in a world of forced feigned smiles

Fed with colored fancy lies

A guy by my side tells me he loves me

When his actions tell otherwise

In mime sceneries there is more to see

Than an exchange of dialogue that’s over-revised

Encircled with friends that say they care

With acts of concern they try hard to share

A family rooted for mere responsibility

A love disguised for lucid pity

I know now why I am caressed this way

Why I am draped with masked love every single day

A frail heart—too weak to handle the truth

For I was literally once the baby of the blue

9:47 pm

January 12, 2012